“Jessica Hoppe writes with grace and gripping candor about being the first in her family to recover from addiction in this fiery debut memoir.”

― Esquire

“Hoppe debuts with a bold and illuminating account of getting sober and her attempts to ‘decolonize recovery’ by deconstructing ingrained narratives about people of color and substance abuse . . . She presents her findings in sharp, forceful prose, effortlessly weaving together her personal story and her insights into the intersection between race and sobriety. This is essential reading.”

— Publishers Weekly (Starred Review)

“truth-telling at its finest. at once raw and brilliant…Jessica Hoppe’s debut memoir breaks not only family cycles, but the cycle of the american dream: a patriarchal, white, racist, misogynist nightmare that doesn’t stand a chance in the face of Hoppe’s cutthroat pen.”

— Javier Zamora, New York Times bestselling author of Solito: A Memoir

“sings with love and shouts with rage offering an uplifting account of resilience and recovery even while calling out the seductive dangers of the American dream.”

— Carl Erik Fisher, M.D., author of The Urge

“with great skill and generosity, hoppe recounts her life and her struggles for the benefit of us all. she wields her astonishing self-awareness like a lasso, drawing the reader in so that she might whisper into their ear, listen there’s a way out!”

— Alejandro Varela, author of The Town of Babylon and The People Who Report More Stress